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What does a woman have inside herself?
Something that men never will know, completely, because they don't try do find it, they are resigned just to love us. Like the saying: men don't understand women, they just love them.

. Awful mistake, because WE have to understand men and also love them, Why cannot be the same??
. Part of the understanding is know how treat them. Women try to please men in whatever they want and if we can do it they feel that we're not the ones for them... It's so unfair!!
. Women love men, just like they are... even when they treat us bad... like some people say: women like men make them suffer. Men must love us just like we are... with our virtues and defects...
. But what can be a defect? They say that if they really love you, nothing could be a defect... I believe in that... yes, I do.

. A little of romance isn't bad for anyone... even there're some people that can't live without those details that make us happy... those details give a push in a couple and keep love alive.
. A flower... a postcard... chocolates... iuk! so romantic!!
. I'd feel weird if I get some of them!! sometimes are rediculous... but it depends on the context... anyway they're worn-out...
. I recognised, long time ago, I need these details, but I can't do anything to receive something original and cute...
. I don't know how this love's still intact... and it's worse because it's increasing...

. Maybe this is the cheaper relation that you ever had... I don't want anything material, I just want your love and I want to notice you preocupation for me... I wanna feel that you are cared about me.We are so different, and sometimes I think about finish it.
. But I can't... I need you... And I dream of the day u will say or do something for me...

I love you... and when I say it... it's true... I know you know it.

Present or Future?

We always do the same thing... we always try to make things.... and always happen the same damn thing....
We don't know if they are going to work

I hate that!!
By these days... I only have to accept.. nothing else.....

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Once more, students' life is hard...
Are we completely sure about what are we doing? About what we want for our future?
Maybe I'm sure what I want in my life... but in my present life... not in the future
These years are going to define the rest of our lifes... last year I was scared about this... now... I'm just living it... because there's nothing I can do against the system...

Some things are frustrating for some people... they have high spectations, but when can't got them, they think there's no other way to go on...
for that reason I just think in my present... I do live my present...
Obviously I dream with a future... but it isn't something impossible to do... I'm not that perfectionist...
THE thing that I really want is to be Happy.... and with all the people that I love.

Questions

I don't know how can I love you... You're not how I imagined.
You do a lot of things that make me feel different... you come suddenly and make a mess, whenever you want... sometimes I love it... and sometimes I hate it.
I dream that you're going to do something in a way, but you do it different. Also I can see that many times you think just in yourself and you don't do anything to be plaseant with me... I'd like you see by yourself that I do need some demostrations or signs from you, ... someday I'd like to
A detail never is left... and you should know it....

I'm crazyyyyyyy.... I'm wrong!!
I'm stupid!!
I love you... and now you make me doubt... No, it isn't a doubt... even I'm more sure that I love you... but the questios is are you afraid of that? ... may be... it's very possible, because you don't wanna hurt me... and you'll never give yourself, completely, becuase of that.

By the other hand, I want you... and you want me... of that I'm very,. absolutely sure...
you know... like the song : "I want to make it with you"

Even I don't know why do I make me this questions... and why do I think about them... that's not good for me... I like what we have... I like having you... I like you.... I love you... and this is bigger everyday

In loved

It's not painful by now...

Even I'm happy... because I know you love me... and I love you... but I don't know if it will be work...
If we will let that this work....

I'm sure you know that I want to try... and that I'll do it... but I'm not so sure how much you will try....
Like the song says... "don't give up easily" .... please... I'm afraid of that... in some way

A weeks ago I was afraid to recognize that I love you... now I'm not... but I'm afraid to suffer again...
don't let me suffer.... And don't leave alone when I need to be with you...

I hope this feeling, about love, stays here for a long, very long time...
I love you

"I WaNNa LoVe You ToDaY,
iF THeRe's No ToMoRRoW"

In Spanish

I'll write something in Spanish... I don't know why... I guess I just wanna do it... long time ago I didn't do it.... here I go....

El mundo gira... gira... gira y gira más y más...
tan rapido!! demasiado rapido q a penas parpadeamos y se nos pasan años... miles d recuerdos... personas... lugares... experiencias.. s necesario darse un minuto... detenerse en ese rapido girar... analizar, pensar, recordar... a veces añorar... reir ... llorar... y dejar atras tantas cosas...
"paren el mundo... q m kiero bajar"

Extrañar
palabra d 8 letras, q supone miles d sentimientos... s tan fuerte lo q se siente, lo q se kiere, lo que se necesita, s una sensacion inexplikble... impotncia... se desea con tanto fervor, pero s inalknzable... a veces... n nuestra debilidad... nos dejamos bajar... nsimismados n nuestro mundo, los limites d nuestra cabeza no nos dejan ver... cegados...
muxos prefieren star ciegos... no ver... olvidarse del resto.. poke es muxo mas facil.. se vive mjor.. mas feliz... tal vez sea muxo mejor star ciegos... e ignorar la complejidad del mundo...

Amar
lo mas bello y lo mas horrible q se puede sentir...
lagrimas... risas... emocion... deseo... frustracion... debilidad... ngaño... dominacion... libertad... ceder... dar todo... kerer recibir... combustible del alma...
nada se puede comparar con el amor... cdo amas y stas con la persona amada... muxas veces no t das cuenta cto la amas... lo muxo q disfrutas star con ella.. el tiempo pasa muy rapido...
y cdo stas sola... sin esa persona... un minuto parece un siglo... soledad... bienvenida soledad... recuerdos... nostalgia... mas necesidad d amar... y sentirse amado...
"nunk sabes lo q tienes hasta q lo pierdes"
amar tb rekiere sfuerzo... uno luxa por lo q kiere... las cosas no resultan si uno se keda sentado sperando a q otros las hagan por nosotros...
amar funciona si todos ponen d su parte... y ntregan too d si...
("amar s ntregarse olvidandose d si, buskando lo q al otro pueda hacerle feliz")
aunq muxas veces uno siente q no recibe nada q no s justo... pero no impide seguir amando... y eso s lo q duele... amar y no ser correspondido...
y aunq sea correspondido... cada uno ama diferente... unos mas intensamente q otros... y esos son los q mas sufren... pero la verdad no s q se ame diferent, sino q se xpresa difernte... y eso s lo q hay q aprender a conocer para sentirse pleno....
cdo se logra conocer a la persona... se sta trankilo con el ser amado...

"que esto de tu ausencia duele
y no sabes cuánto"

Complex!!

ahahaahahhahahahahahahahahahah
Complex!!!!
I missed you so much!!! so much!!!
Yesterday was a nice.... fantastic!!
I don't know how it happened... but it was perfect...
Beautiful dusk... at the university... beautiful everything....
your kisses.... I wanted them a lot...
And the talk.... mmm.... we didn't go anywere with it... but I'm glad because you were honest and made me feel good again... protected and loved...

I just wanna be with you, now.... but I don't know what to do....
What can we do??
we... we... we....
I love you

How long does it take?

More than one month.. and I remember that day, like it was yesterday...
How long does it take?? How long?
When will I stop of think about you?

There's no moment... minute... day... that I don't think in you... I usually wonder what are you doing right now.... did you study? are you tired? are you sleeping? are you playing? Do you remember me?
I'm full of that... I don't want this feeling!! (I guess it has been the phrase that I've said a lot this month)
It's something exasperating... I feel a HUGE impotence...because I want to see you, even from some place away... walking to university... be with you... but I can't...
I hate myself... I look around... and I feel so small and everything is too big... and I hate me... because I didn't use to need nobody... but now... I need you... and I don't want to need you any more...
Before you, I was alone... but I didn't need nobody.... now... I'm alone again... but I need YOU.