Won't be the same... ever

Rainy days and I feel them great. Maybe some water was missing.
However, sometimes people feel depressed and I usually do, but not this time. Because I felt them like an oportunity to think about what's new in my life.

I feel like if I were seeing a new world. There are lots of things and feelings that I didn't know and I'm so excited to live this, that I'm afraid to lose it. That's why I guess I have to pay attention and enjoy this.

It's a weird sensation, a strange way of feeling. Something completely new and I'm glad to start to know it. It's also new for you. It's a new step in our lifes together which help us to know us much better and to make this stronger.

It's just amazing!
We are closer.



We lost something, but we're winning much more.

You cannot have your cake and eat it

Time keep going... and I don't really notice it.

You cannot have your cake and eat it. Definitely.

Although that ghost is still there, sometimes I forget it and allow myself to be happy. I try to avoid thinking about it, because I don't wanna feel insecure.
That's my way of feeling well. And I manage it.

By the other hand, there is something that makes me feel a little worried, because my unconscious side is trying, maybe, to tell me something that I don't like very much. And I'm afraid it could be true. Anyway, I'll wait whats' next.


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Like a Gwen's song says "Time always kills the pain". I can associate this phrase with two situations that make me feel sad. The first one is overcome, I guess. But the second one is still fresh and I can understand how it could happen.

I'm not used, though I should, to see that. I felt humiliate, indignant, powerless and with no possibility to fix it. It doesn't have solution.
It's known that the human being understand by talking, but I started to believe that this is not always true. When you don't want to hear or see, you can't realize other's reality, and unfortunately you're focused in your own. That's sad, very sad.
The worst thing is you'll hurt the people who is around you. At the end, the only thing you can get of this is lonelyness. Everybody will move further away of you with this attitude.

It isn't so hard to say SORRY.... why is it difficult for some people??


I don't want to write anymore.
I just say goodbye... and a happy mother's day... if you can have it.