First Certification Exam

Less than a month is left for measuring my English knowledge.
I'm not really nervous.... now....
but I'm sure that I'll be in 2 weeks.

This is quite important because if I fail... I don't want to dessapoint anybody... or to get frustated.... Also, if I pass this exam, my CV will have a "plus": a paper that says that I DO KNOW ENGLISH!

I feel that I'll be given many opportunities... this is one of those. This is like a door open, and I'm just starting to look at what's inside...

To know English helps anybody to make her or his world bigger. U can have a wider view of life, set bigger golds and, of course, have possibilities of travelling abroad.

I've hesitated a lot about this... and I keep firm in my idea. I wouldn't like to live in another country. I'd rather go there for holidays or just for a short period, because I don't think I could stand to be far away from my family for so long.
I'm not really sure if it's for my family.. maybe it's just for u... because u're the only thing that I can lose going abroad.

I'd wish I could take u with me....

2 or 3 hours to see u & 2 of 7 days to talk to u

I've always thought the same. VERY little time!!
Maybe it's a little bit boring 4 u, but I don't think so. It mught be cause you're not used to it... me either, but I consider we should share more time together...
On the other hand, it could be dangerous, as well... cause of this thing about "dependency"...

I already dependent on you, so I don't really care about losing what's left of indenpendency.

I've told u many times... and I'm tired of that...
I think I got it now... u're just fine.. and u don't think the same as me, in this case.

Psycological

I was drowning in a glass of water....

mmmm.... well... or maybe not.

In fact, the problems are still there... but they're not as unconfortable as yesterday and I feel much better today.

And that's because of you. You were patient... and fortunately, you realized by yourself, what was going on with me.

Now I'm calmed because this afternoon was very special and the softness and passion you used really means for me. Also, some of my doubts were clarified.... I think.... But some others are still there, but not as bothering as yesterday.

I know you know how to do it.... but I guess you forget it sometimes. So, I hope you remember it more frecuently.

Would it happen?.... It did.

Doubts again in my head...
Will it work?

The feeling's still the same, but this isn't the way I want it to be. The last 2 weeks something has been in my mind, an idea that might be difficult to accept, even for myself.
I'm afraid of being alone, although I'm afraid to carry on with this. Because if those things that annoy me don't change, this weird feeling won't leave... maybe.

The thing is that you don't notice it and that's what makes me feel like this.

What happened the other day really scared me. I couldn't.... I COULDN'T!!
I never thought this would happen.
I told you I was sorry, but I know that you didn't feel ok about that although you told me not to worry. And I'm really sorry.

Since then, I've wanted to cry... no reason why. In fact, I don't do it... but it's just a horrible anguish... something that's opressing my heart and doesn't seem to leave.

I've thought this might be because of the things that I'm taking, but anyway, if this feeling wasn't real, it wouldn't be here. Not even a little!