Would it happen?.... It did.

Doubts again in my head...
Will it work?

The feeling's still the same, but this isn't the way I want it to be. The last 2 weeks something has been in my mind, an idea that might be difficult to accept, even for myself.
I'm afraid of being alone, although I'm afraid to carry on with this. Because if those things that annoy me don't change, this weird feeling won't leave... maybe.

The thing is that you don't notice it and that's what makes me feel like this.

What happened the other day really scared me. I couldn't.... I COULDN'T!!
I never thought this would happen.
I told you I was sorry, but I know that you didn't feel ok about that although you told me not to worry. And I'm really sorry.

Since then, I've wanted to cry... no reason why. In fact, I don't do it... but it's just a horrible anguish... something that's opressing my heart and doesn't seem to leave.

I've thought this might be because of the things that I'm taking, but anyway, if this feeling wasn't real, it wouldn't be here. Not even a little!